(bear with me. i use warrior names instead of the real names of people..)
so some good friends of mine told me tht Tumblr was a good site to also help rant and maybe ask foe advice… well im lost and thought maybe i can ask for advice on here because i really dont know what to do..
i really like this guy.. (his names shadowpelt)
hes super sweet, i Know he likes me too because he told me so. hes kind and thinks of others before himself. he also happens to be a capricorn like myself.
whenever i hang out with him i just feel soooo happy. i forget about some of the bad stuff thts been going on lately..
now here comes the part thts screwing with me..
i also have hidden feelings for someone else.. (lets call him Fury) ive finally come to accept those feelings because i NEVER did before.. i refused to admit it for SO long tht i started to believe myself. but after me and him fought it hurt. ALOT. i began to wonder Why it hurt So bad. i mean yeah he was one of my best friends but it was different. then earlier this year i started to reallyyy miss him even though i thought i hated him. ‘theres a fine line between love and hate’
this guys did alott to make me finally stop tlking to him..
well, we’re friends again after almost a year. when we hang out its almost like we never fought. we’re like best friends again..
well GREAT i have F***ing feelings for him.. WTF.
so now i have no idea what to do…
Shadowpelt knows tht i have confused feelings for Fury.. he said he accepts it and just wants whatever makes me happy and tht he’ll go with whatever i choose.. me and shadowpelt are really close..
Fury knows tht i have confused feelings for him (according to our friend Yellowstripe) but hasnt said anything to me about it but Kindaa admitted to me tht he still had feelings for me but he thinks tht me and Shadowpelt should try being together.. shadowpelt is a mutual friend.
now, me and shadowpelt are part of TS, our group of friends. more like family.
no one in TS has a problem with Fury, and hes good friends with some of us and aquaintences with some of the others. but TS supports me and shadowpelt because wed be really good together. theyre not so keen on me and Fury because of our horrible fights in the past.. they always ended Very bad..
hes promised me hes going to do Whatever he can to stop it from happening again and he promised me tht i can trust him and depend on him..
considering all of this, the obvious choice should be Shadowpelt right?… but i CANT shake my feelings for Fury either..
whenever im with shadowpelt im really happy and just SO sure tht i wanna be with him… but then i think about Fury or hang out with Fury and i become so uncertain again.. im happy with him too..
another frustrating part is tht im not sure if my parents will like the idea of me going out with either of them.. they really like them as my friends But idk about dating..
cos shadowpelt will turn 20 years old 3 days after i turn 17..
Fury is my age, but my parents know what happened in the past and prolly wont like the idea..
on top of all this, my Best friend is moving to deland and isnt going to my school anymore and thts affecting me pretty badly.. then another really good friend of mine is moving to NC in Feb.. also hitting me real hard cos these people are my family.. theyre part of TS.
im really stressed out and dont know what to do.. Hell i ddnt even get to say half the sh** i needed/wanted to.. im too flustered..
and if anyone in TS is reading this, please DO NOT say anything to Fury OR Shadowpelt..
can anyone help me?
‘theres a fire inside of this heart and a riot about to explode into flames..’
‘before you start a war, you better know what youre fighting for..’
does anyone have any advice?
(if for some reason the reply box doesnt show up under this post and you have some advice, please message me.. pleasee..)
